Anonymous Hate
Good morning, dearest patients!
Today started off like any other—playing visual novels and tidying up around the place. It was honestly peaceful, and for a while, I felt content just enjoying the quiet routine of my morning without school.
But that peace didn’t last. As the day went on, I started receiving hateful messages on Alterspring. Some of them came from people defending my groomer, while others were from peolle making up stories about me—claiming I was dating a full-grown adult who is a known abuser and calling me a horrible person for it. It was so surreal and upsetting to be accused of something I never did. Sometimes, it feels like people have these harsh expectations or judgments about me without even knowing who I am or what I’ve been through. It’s strange and hurtful, but I try to remind myself that I can only control my own actions and character. No matter what others say, I want to keep striving to be the best version of myself.
What really confused me were the anonymous messages telling me I should reach out to my groomer and apologize to him. That suggestion alone was so bizarre. For the record, I never doxxed him or threatened to leak that information. All I did was tell him to leave me alone, and that if he didn’t, I would contact the police in his city. Apparently, he took that very seriously and used it as a reason to paint himself as the victim, which somehow led to me getting banned on Spring.
Honestly, I’m not even upset about being banned from that site. If anything, I’m relieved. Visiting that site always made me feel anxious and sick to my stomach. Now that I can’t access it, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I’m grateful for the opportunity to move on and focus on healthier spaces and relationships. Part of me thinks the site should be taken down entirely since it was originally meant for the creator and her friends.
All I can do is keep moving forward, learning from my experiences, and doing my best to heal and grow.