Learning to Let Go
My first proper repost! I’m going through my blog and editing a few things.
I thought I’d share something real about myself: I’m not as forgiving as I wish I could be. I don’t think I truly “hate” anyone-I usually just get annoyed and move on. Looking back at old photos and videos, I used to be so much more energetic and bubbly. I’ve grown and improved in a lot of ways, but I also seem more tired now, and I find it easier to just walk away from things.
When I was younger, I always tried to fix things with my friends. Once, my boyfriend cheated on me with my friend, and I forgave them both because I hated conflict. I’m still friends with her, but we just never talk about what happened. These days, I don’t have the energy for that anymore. If someone crosses my boundaries-especially if it affects my schooling-I just stop responding. I’ve learned it’s not worth my peace.
Recently, I tried to help a couple with their relationship. They kept breaking up for different reasons, and I told them honestly that they probably aren’t good for each other, but they love each other, so what can I say? I don’t really understand love, so I can’t relate to what they’re going through. It got exhausting, staying up until 4 a.m. to help them work through their issues, only to find out I wasn’t getting the whole story. I told them how I felt, and now they only come to me if they really need help, which I appreciate.
I help when I can, but I try not to get too emotionally involved. I’m the “therapist friend”-I help new students, especially exchange students, and I’m always there to lend a hand or spoil someone when they need it. People call me an angel for a reason. Honestly, I just don’t have it in me to hate anyone. It’s too draining. If someone wrongs me, I focus on improving myself and becoming a better version of who I was. Some people say that’s petty, and maybe it is, but I can’t really disagree.
Remember Patients, You need to learn when to forgive, when to walk away, and how to protect your own well-being. I’m sharing my journey from being overly forgiving and conflict-avoidant to setting firm boundaries that honor my priorities, especially my education and mental health. I hope my story encourages you to value your peace and recognize that sometimes, the best way to care for others is by first caring for yourself.