Stalking and Parasocial
Good morning, dearest patients ♡
It’s been a little while since I last posted. The past few weeks have been really busy and overwhelming for me. Lately, I’ve been focusing on taking better care of myself, and I’m feeling a bit more balanced now. Because of that, I’m thinking about making my accounts public again soon since I’m not struggling with boredom as much these days.
I’ve been reflecting on some of the people who have been watching me online. I realized that a lot of their behavior was just about getting my attention—whether to bother me or make me uncomfortable—and sadly, it worked. After stepping back, I started to see how scary it is that someone would feel okay doing that to a minor online. It made me wonder what else they might be capable of.
I also had to apologize to a friend for staying friends with someone who made awful comments about him and about minors. It hurt him a lot, and we talked for almost an hour. Thankfully, he forgave me, and I’m really grateful for that.
Recently, I read something that hit home: “Stalkers don’t care if you give them negative or positive attention. Blocking only fuels them more.” That really stung because it’s true. I’ve had stalkers in person and online, and no matter what kind of attention you give them, it just keeps them going. They want any kind of attention, even if it hurts you. Sometimes it feels like I’ll never be left alone, and that’s a hard truth to face. But I’m thankful for the support I’ve gotten and the people I’ve met who’ve helped me understand all this.
On a happier note, my brother and I have been playing more games together. Last night we played “Parasocial.” It was really good, even if it was a bit slow. I liked how it showed how different choices can change the future. The game also showed how unhealthy parasocial relationships can be, which is something I’ve struggled with. I wish the story was longer and went deeper into how normal these things have become, but playing it was refreshing.
Thank you for reading ♡